pretend time..

Sometimes I like to take a mental vacation and pretend I am far, far away.. today I have been staring off into space and thinking about all sorts of things I normally wouldn't. I need peace of mind on a lot of issues that have been shifting around in my own head.. Tonight, I am getting lost in Amy Winehouse Radio on pandora, and I am going to take the time to think and vent..

Deleted my Facebook, I mean poof! and it was finally gone. I must say I feel LIBERATED in so many ways.. I want to go back to the old times where people didn't know where I am, at all parts of the day... I don't want to associate with some people anymore, and I don't want people to have the ability to say they know anything remotely about me or my life..


I am very thankful to have GREAT friends, who keep me going everyday, and often times treat be better than family.. I am trying to become the best influence in many people's lives that I am surrounded with.. I have a new love for jazz music and powerhouse singers.. I think I am growing older not in age, but in mentality.. These past few days I have been having epiphanies left and right. I have finally learned that every decision, everything you say, and more importantly everything you touch will change your overall human experience, and I am not holding back anymore..

Dont get me wrong, and please don't mistake me.. I don't want to live careless and be dangerous. I just want to say Yes! to new opportunities and never be afraid to be daring. I mean, I don't care to be confused for the time being, and I know mistakes are part of growing up, but sometimes I need to make the mistake more than once to really grasp the concept.. and sometimes, we don't see things as mistakes until something better comes along. So, I am going to keep on keeping on because that's what "what's his face would do"


I know that I am going 10000 different places with this one, but I am venting rememeber.. When I go back and read this, I will know what every paragraph refers to and what every sentence means to me.. :)